Enough e·nough - to achieve a purpose; satisfy a need or desire.

Enough is a mighty word. It’s bulky, assertive and a strong decision maker. It possesses the survivability factor of armored steel. “I’ve had enough!” declares a bravery that masters the art of direct honesty. Its solid stance poised in confidence, standing alone in solidarity. Enough is a proud word with an unwavering denial to consequences or endings. It has the ability to see long distance in a way no other word can see; forecasting the never-ending push and pull of its future limitational boundaries. A firm expert in decision making while genuinely rigid in execution.

Enough is close enough

To echo through time and space

Enough is distant enough

To no longer participate

The world's way of communicating is changing everyday. Yet above all, words are still our biggest power house. Take for instance this statement, “I am enough.” A true flood of adulation washing over us while still questioning one’s waterfall of reason. When the context of this word embarks on our identity and our human imprint, things begin to change.

"Enough is capable of evoking rejection and resurrection all in one word."

In addition, “Am I enough?” has the ability to pounce upon our inner core and rattle our soul. It reaches in dodging hesitation, taking hold of our existence straight on; cut throat like a spiritual jab. When enough is voiced in a sentence all other words fade. It quickly commands our vulnerability with shear force as we fall upon our knees in weakness only to stand up and be face to face with inadequacy.

"A state of being; where enough emulates a tug-a-war between tranquility and turmoil."

I am confident most people do not sit around contemplating their level of enough; however, what does our unconscious mind think of this? Our minds associate, “I am enough.” with “I have fulfilled my purpose.” I think that is why it is incredibly difficult to truly believe we are actually fully “enough” for ourselves and for others. When spoken out loud, it tends to rock on a shaky foundation. As humans we are explorers. Our identity is based on reaching our best self, building our best dream and leaving behind our very best legacy. If our mind believes we are essentially enough, it’s like we acknowledge a peak to our existence.

"Our unconscious mind is always reminding us of our future so that we cannot be forgotten."

According to the BBC, researchers have found that reminders of death increase our desire to produce a stronger legacy. When someone around us falls it makes us run even harder to leave a bigger and better vision of ourselves behind. The key finding in a Scientific Journal NeuroImage study was that the brain refuses to connect death with the self or predict that the self is limited within boundaries. The research suggests that the self knows others will die, but it will not happen within itself; something that relates only to others. It is an idea our unconscious mind can’t understand. It may be that our unconscious mind fears death more than our conscious mind. To that point, I believe it is an unconscious fear of mortality that makes us feel those gut wrenching vulnerabilities. The turbulence of self-doubt and unworthiness that one questions over and over. I feel sure there are many that can relate. As humans we were never programmed to think right here and right now is our absolute best time. Scientifically we are at our happiest when we have an unfinished “to do'' list. The perception is, our best day is ahead of us, just around the corner, within sight or soon within reach. A frightening comprehension our minds never want to believe is….

“Personally, professionally or spiritually our mind has already lived its very best day.”

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Ok, “Enough” Already!!! :-)

The reality is.. it certainly sounds and feels limiting to express to others, “I am NOT enough.” In many regards, it could make a person feel very emotionally stuck; hence, a vision to stand firm in complacency with a beating stale heart. Our minds want to control everything due to biochemical processes. I have made a decision to completely let go. I am open to the idea, “I am enough ONLY at this very moment in time” while still understanding I have so much farther to go. Enough has taught me that my lack of confidence and self-worth are a very normal part of how the mind works. Our brains have a deep disbelief that one day it will no longer exist, so complete satisfaction will never be believable. I feel “lucky enough” to take this information and allow it to carry me forward, to strive toward the next daybreak. People sometimes say words are not enough. For me, words have been the only thing that make me feel, “I am enough.”

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NOTE TO SELF

I have a box of 100 notes

Each numbered and delicately placed

Beautifully written with swirly scrolls

I can’t understand what they say

I have a box of 10,000 words

Letters and syllables all look the same

Systematically aligned with sincerity

Somehow arranged in disarray

I have a box of 1 million details

The lid I no longer can oppress

Amazing layers of simplistic joy

But realistically a vivid mess

There’s a saying that holds true

When problems arise

Think outside the box

Place the ending goal aside

This box is my future

That I thought was my past

Been quenching my thirst

From a four cornered glass

I emptied the box and refilled with blind fate

Just as the moon creates tides

And the sun regenerates

Today I wrote 1 note

Instructions on how to grow

It said, “I am enough, because I'm still building my dream."

Now I only have 99 more notecards to go... © S. Ihrig